The lack of trust is especially hurtful, but... Aside from that... Even if it was something you were doing for your sake primarily, you still bring up it was partly for my sake. And more bloodshed is the furthest thing from anything I would ever want. So...It winds up feeling more like you were using me as an excuse than actually being concerned for me as a member of Lilis.

That may not be how it was, but that's how it feels.